Friday, April 23, 2010

Guest Are Arriving

My Birthday/Going Away party is tomorrow. The part about the birthday party kind of got skipped over, but when your 29 that happens and with so much on the horizon I am not worried about it. This party has had a tentative date for at least 4 months, back when we didn't know when or if the whole Peace Corps experience would happen, so facing the reality that it is here, and I am leaving sits heavy on my heart. I am going to really try to focus on everyone and the moment rather than skip over all the good stuff and just start crying. I think everyone gets the picture that time seems to have sped up, but I just can't say it enough, slow this train down!!!


Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Barely.

I am barely holding it together these days. I wake up anxious in the mornings, just about everything in general. I started crying while reading the birthday cards I got today, and when my cousins were talking about their visit this weekend. It seems like every emotion I would normally be feeling is heightened because I am leaving so soon. I keep forgetting it is my birthday tomorrow, thats when you know your overwhelmed. I am also going though periods of extreme calm which throws everything off. Either way I am feeling, I am always excited, and I am looking forward to this experience. Peace Corps has also been great about sending lots of information for us trainees to look over and that helps divert my attention away from my many lists of things to do. I want time to speed up so I can go already, and I want it to slow down so I can spend more time with my family and friends.

On a side note, I finished my Peace Corps CD I am making for my family!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

It's April...

And time for an anxiety attack! Seriously, what just happened, I am gone in just over a month. I have so much I have to do and I have to do it, like yesterday. I have so many supplies I need to buy, professional clothes I need to purchase, and shoes I need to find. I joined a group on Facebook for my Peace Corps training group B26! I think that actually stressed me out more. Somehow, someway I keep putting this in the "reality to come" section of my brain, only causing a little bit of stress, but after reading up on the group page I finally realized that this needs to be in the "get off your a$$ and take care of business now" category. Commence freak out!